May 23, 2017

Chapter One (Month)


                                                            [ H A P P Y   B I R T H D A Y   N I C O L E ]





Dec 20, 2016

Live the life you dare.

I am writing this from the comfort of a public library. Not the most glamorous choice. Trust me, I would most rather be writing on a beach on Fiji but it is what it is, a desperate attempt to immortalise my thoughts into this little space I call my own. We dictate our own thoughts, choosing to vocalise some and forcing the rest back into dark retreat. Like an orchestra of black letters, lunging out in full force yet gentle upon release. And this is how I would like to remember it. Raw, unshackled. As it is.

It has, no doubt, been a rough 2 years for me. Both in my career and personal life. For starters, 2015 was an intense year for me in a very physical way. I was admitted to the hospital on my 25th birthday, with a mass in my womb that no prayer could take away. Not gonna explain what happened (again). My biggest takeaway is that it served as a nasty wake up call to me. That health and the horrible sides of it is like that friend you don't want to mess around with. I learnt that I can’t choose if I were to get hurt or not, I just have to learn to forgive the process. No matter how warped it might be. 

It is hardly difficult to envision us taking our health for granted. That is what we do. We think that we would live to see the world, to live out those cliche you-only-live-once moments. We think that everyone would have the opportunity to fall in love, once, twice, too many times. We think that we have forever to kiss our parents goodnight. We think that we could be “friends forever”. Like all things, time is a fleeting moment and we have to take charge of it. We all say that we do, but we don’t. We make bad decisions at the dinner table, we fall for the same “type” knowing that they would destroy us in a heartbeat. We overlook expiry dates, we attempt to drink our collective emptiness away.

Maybe we are afraid. Too shaken to admit that we do not have the luxury of time to waste anymore. But yet we do, we spend too much time on people who won’t give us any. We spend too much time on chasing things that don’t matter, earning money to impress people who won’t matter. We create the platform that society despises, and we point fingers at the latter when shit happens.

When all we need is an ounce of faith to flip a switch and shut the lights on all that we believe and used to believe in. Uncertainty is a beautiful thought. How could we possibly step out of our comfort zones when we are certain and guarded. That’s the beauty of it I guess. Still figuring this out.


So in this coming year, don’t be afraid to say what you feel and do what you need to do. Even if it is unconventional. Even if it is frowned upon. Too many people will try to tear you down just because. Allow yourself to say goodbye to some people who hurt you time and time again. Do it because you won’t be afraid of getting hurt anymore. Have the courage to learn and unlearn. To finally let it go. Do it because it matters to you. 2017 will come and go. Do it because we are all running out of time.

May 15, 2016

Weekends with Innisfree






Prepping my skin with a new kid on the block. Spent the weekend shooting products and it was honestly pretty fun this time round because I managed to make a roadside bush work out for this shoot. And got shat on by an unassuming bird (I choose to believe that it was unintentional but who knows right). Pictures are a little blur because blogger.com seems to downsize my picture quality which is so screwed up for me at this juncture. Wish I was techy enough to figure this one out but I guess I will have to hold out until a solution magically appears. Thanks for sticking around guys, really appreciate it.


May 8, 2016

I can see now.






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Hello!

Those who have been following me on Snapchat would know that I recently had laser vision correction surgery done. A part of my healing process was documented there, and you know that nature of Snapchat. It gets deleted after a day. In order to document my journey of Lasek vision correction surgery and not let this part of my youth (ehem ehem) be forgotten, I decided to blog about it as well.

Just a little background on my eye health and condition. I have been wearing contact lenses for almost 10 years, defined contact lenses for at least 8 years. My eyes feel dry all the time, and I used to be quite dependent on eye drops. I know a girl who uses eye drops so often that I lost count of the number of times she applied them during our dinner together. It was quite insane. And you guessed it right, she has been wearing defined contact lenses for a long time. I was pretty sure that I wouldn't want to end up at that stage where my eyes can't seem to produce tears for natural lubrication anymore T___T

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So this is an account of what happened... I went to a lasik surgery clinic in paragon (level 13) and went through multiple eye tests which confirmed my suitability for Lasek (a type of laser vision correction surgery). The rest is really history.

I never thought that I could survive not wearing defined contact lenses, being the slight vain pot I am. Every girl wants to look good no matter what they say haha. I mean, girls... lets get real. Our eyes look instantly brighter with defined lenses, but do you know that extended usage of these lens cause severe damage to your eyes? Well I wish I knew earlier.


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Since my cornea was really thin and delicate before surgery (due to all that abuse I inflicted by wearing contact lens for prolonged periods of time, staring at screens for more than 15 hours sometimes) My recovery process was much longer than everyone else. Most people take less than a week to function like they did pre-surgery.









That long recovery means that I could get back to my normal routine after 2 weeks - back to doing outdoor shoots, travelled to Krabi and went straight back into video/photo editing in the office. I think thats a pretty good gauge on how long you would take to recover, but everyone is different!

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Never thought I would say this but I really feel the difference after getting laser vision correction surgery done. Its so odd because I feel a significant change in my confidence with baring my eyes, now void of dryness and discomfort from long hours of wearing contact lens. My world is truly brighter and clearer now, which is really quite an indescribable feeling honestly. Lasek surgery is one of the best things I have done for myself. Other than getting my first DSLR - which is a really big deal to me by the way.


I would fully encourage any one of you to consider laser vision correction surgery  Be brave and take that leap of faith! I promise that it isn't as intimidating as it seems to be. Feel free to email me at audreyfaithlim@hotmail.com or visit @LasikParagon if you would like to find out more!




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Apr 30, 2016

Alley and Audrey



Lace Bralet: Kikikeli Store   |   Jeans: Chatuchak Market   |   White Platform Sneakers: Nex Serangoon Mall

My best friend and I were exploring the back alleys in Orchard Road for outfit shots and managed to #werk a back alley behind H&M which we thought was pretty ratchet. Or rather, me. I love my best friend to bits but she ain't well versed in the aesthetics. She doesn't care less about details like that.  Which is probably why I love her so much.

Not sure if it is just age catching up but I feel like an extremely lazy dresser these days. I could literally live in boyfriend jeans if I could. And I would since my office is so damn chill. You could turn up to work in a onesie and no one would even notice. Love it.